Should I feel guilty? I really love what I do and it is so much fun that it can't be right. Or can it? I've been in a position where I had to put forth an effort at a job I was not passionate about. Many people do the same thing every day.
What if you were going to have surgery. You wouldn't take it lightly would you? Wouldn't you want a surgeon who deeply loved what he or she did for a living? Someone who felt a deep passionate connection with their work. Someone who woke up in the morning and was glad to be alive, and a large part of that joy was connected to their work. Is there any other way to live? Would you want a mean old crouch working on you?
I guess it's the same with capturing images of people with photography and forever freezing moments in time. It's not the same as being a surgeon but it's something I'm passionate about. Alicia and I both love what we do. It doesn't matter how many weddings we have done in a month every person gets photographed with the passion we have about our job. It's a positive experience. It's exciting to capture images of your wedding day and turn them into artistic expressions of who you are. I've had folks come up to me time and time again and say things like: "You are by far the best photographer to work with I have seen. You're so easy going and the way you pose people makes them look relaxed and natural and most of all you have fun."
If I ever stop loving doing what I'm doing it will be time to move on. I can't see that happening. I'm having too much fun and it keeps me young and energized. I love doing what I'm doing. If that fact never changes, nothing else will. I'm a people/portrait photographer and as long as I can put up with the occasional pangs of guilt for having so much fun doing what I'm doing, and getting paid for it, everything will be okay. And I can keep making bride's smile when they look at their finished wedding album.
A surgeon can often go back and reset a broken bone. A carpenter can re-cut and replace a botched job. A chef can start all over if he ruins his latest creation. I can't. Time moves on and the moments are a "flicker". I can't explain why I love to do something that carries so much responsibility. Some think it's the money, but it's not. I mean money helps, it pays the bills and I get to take my family to special places if I plan well, but it's more than just money. There's something about a wedding day. There's something about taking pictures for a living. It all comes together and makes sense in the long run.
Maybe it's because I'm doing what God wants me to do.
Who would of thought it?
Thanks for reading - Jeffrey Lee McGinthy